What did i do today? Thursday, June 05, 2008
Shades of black and white
6/05/2008 05:08:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Thursday, May 29, 2008
You are still the one i care, you are still the one i think of, you are still the one that matters, you are still the one i love. you are still the one ...
Just when will you not be the one?
Shades of black and white
5/29/2008 11:17:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Just woke up, crying.. it has been a long time since i had a dream, about 2-3 months back. Never had i expect myself to dream of you again. It was so real, i thought we patched up.
I sat at the sofa, you came over to me and gave me a very hard bite on my hand, but i just bear with it, then you scolded me. You pulled me up and we ran away and just kept runing and laughing. There was so much laughter and fun just by doing something stupid with you.
I woke up realising how much i still miss you ger.
I miss you.
Shades of black and white
5/21/2008 12:28:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Tuesday, May 06, 2008
I HATE MYSLEF!! I HATE IT !! I AM AN IDIOT!!
So pissed.. I just am so F**king Pissed, KNNBCCB WATEVER LAH... NBCB.. MF ... FAGGOT DH....
I really am so lost... So pissed... dont understand why cant even this damn blogger give me some face and work for damn goodness sake.. WTF? Pissed with the XML .. screw up my time format with that UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED... You blogger editor out there provide shit solutions.. WHY MUST I FOLLOW THAT FORMAT.. WHY CANT I JUST PUT TIME FORMAT DIFFERENTLY INSTEAD?????? You are just hidding the damn problem away, and not even solving anything..
I cant control myslef.. i really keep too many things to myslef.. but yet.. those i told to were probably disappointed in me and didnt want to talk to me anymore.. everyday .. it just pile up more and more.. i just dont know how long can i how on anymore. Everytime i think of you, i will just break down .. everywhere i go, your shadow is always around ... Why?. I really dont know what to do.. but just kept you in my prayer everytime...
FED UP with myself... Just so sometimes i wish i am dead.. Nights filled with nightmare, Days filled with yearning...JUST WHAT THE FUCK DID I GO SO WRONG? WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH ME.. FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.. I REALLY HATE MYSELF .... I am just waiting to die ... for so many times, i just close my eyes on the road on the bike asking why all these must happen... i cannot stand it .. and if i must .. just let me die on the road now.I REALLY CANNOT STAND MYSELF...WHY CANT I JUST LIVE FOR MYSELF??? I CAN JUST DIE WITHOUT CAUSING ANYONE ANY PROBLEM>.. AHHAHAHHHAH..
DAMN YOU BLOGGER.
Shades of black and white
5/06/2008 12:12:00 am
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Thursday, April 24, 2008
You never understood how you are my world, with you gone... where do i live? I know i caused you pain and anger, but little did i know it caused me more grief and torn me apart... i am guilty.. i hate myself ...
The Living Dead
Shades of black and white
4/24/2008 11:26:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Sunday, January 27, 2008
lost my heart.
lost my mind.
What am i.
Shades of black and white
1/27/2008 11:50:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Thursday, January 10, 2008
Hi to whoever who read this..
19 days since we met- at Bugis Village where we parted as you went to meet your brother, i made a U-turn and last saw you at the bus-stop. You msged me to Ride safe before i left.
10 days since you last msged me. Your last msg asking me to think before doing anything because your family is affected.
After that, hell.
I am in a mess, i really hate myself now, shouldnt have drank, i HATE MYSELF! PIECE OF SHIT.
Bloody drunkard wastrel..
i miss you so much now. Everyday, i couldnt eat nor sleep..
A meal a day, i just play games 24/7 but it didnt help.. Forget to drink, forget to eat, forget to bathe.. just forget everything, and when its time to sleep.. i just got so tired and sleep... i thought it helps...but consectutively, i dreamt of you everynight... i really miss you .. i thought i saw you .. and i thought i heard you talking to me .. then i woke up and look around.. i definitely heard you... but .. you are not there.. i must be dreaming..
School has started, didnt want to leave from my dream.. didnt want to go school.. skipped so many lectures already..
Now that i am broke as well, bills, medical fees, whatever ..I wish i was this guy,
But no.. i am this guy,
Whatever.. i just miss you so much, there is so much to tell you.. and i really love you. going crazy soon.. i dunno how long i can hold on.. i am getting hysterical, i dont know what i am seeing is what i am seeing.. or what am i even doing..
all i know is, i am true to you.
Shades of black and white
1/10/2008 07:56:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you