What did i do today? Thursday, May 29, 2008
You are still the one i care, you are still the one i think of, you are still the one that matters, you are still the one i love. you are still the one ...
Just when will you not be the one?
Shades of black and white
5/29/2008 11:17:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Just woke up, crying.. it has been a long time since i had a dream, about 2-3 months back. Never had i expect myself to dream of you again. It was so real, i thought we patched up.
I sat at the sofa, you came over to me and gave me a very hard bite on my hand, but i just bear with it, then you scolded me. You pulled me up and we ran away and just kept runing and laughing. There was so much laughter and fun just by doing something stupid with you.
I woke up realising how much i still miss you ger.
I miss you.
Shades of black and white
5/21/2008 12:28:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Tuesday, May 06, 2008
I HATE MYSLEF!! I HATE IT !! I AM AN IDIOT!!
So pissed.. I just am so F**king Pissed, KNNBCCB WATEVER LAH... NBCB.. MF ... FAGGOT DH....
I really am so lost... So pissed... dont understand why cant even this damn blogger give me some face and work for damn goodness sake.. WTF? Pissed with the XML .. screw up my time format with that UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED... You blogger editor out there provide shit solutions.. WHY MUST I FOLLOW THAT FORMAT.. WHY CANT I JUST PUT TIME FORMAT DIFFERENTLY INSTEAD?????? You are just hidding the damn problem away, and not even solving anything..
I cant control myslef.. i really keep too many things to myslef.. but yet.. those i told to were probably disappointed in me and didnt want to talk to me anymore.. everyday .. it just pile up more and more.. i just dont know how long can i how on anymore. Everytime i think of you, i will just break down .. everywhere i go, your shadow is always around ... Why?. I really dont know what to do.. but just kept you in my prayer everytime...
FED UP with myself... Just so sometimes i wish i am dead.. Nights filled with nightmare, Days filled with yearning...JUST WHAT THE FUCK DID I GO SO WRONG? WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH ME.. FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.. I REALLY HATE MYSELF .... I am just waiting to die ... for so many times, i just close my eyes on the road on the bike asking why all these must happen... i cannot stand it .. and if i must .. just let me die on the road now.I REALLY CANNOT STAND MYSELF...WHY CANT I JUST LIVE FOR MYSELF??? I CAN JUST DIE WITHOUT CAUSING ANYONE ANY PROBLEM>.. AHHAHAHHHAH..
DAMN YOU BLOGGER.
Shades of black and white
5/06/2008 12:12:00 am
The most colourful one would be you