What did i do today? Monday, July 31, 2006
Oh dear, dead hammie again?
Still feeling sick with the flu and blocked nose. My brother told me that i snored for the 1st time. Seems like my blocked nose must be real bad. Gave tution in the afternoon and came home to rest, tried to sleep all the way till dinner. Really feeling groggerly sick. But , i am still ... Zi High~! yeah.. *LOL* Just that i didnt dance in front of my mother today, cause really didnt feel well, but spiritually still up there.
After dinner came a shocking thing, went to look at my hammies.**!!!** Oh dear, Poggie's wife gave birth. But its a dead foetus, so gross. Quickly took out Poggie in case he might aggitate her somemore. About another hour came another dead foetus.*Sigh* Another premature birth? I guess i must had caused a lot of stress on her this morning when i changed the bedding. Oh man, 2 death in a day. So poor thing, they are so tiny. Cant even do anything to save them. Now just wait and see if she is still going to give birth. The mother hammie is in a bad state as well. She is really tired and keeps falling asleep. Hope she wont die, Oh dear, Why am i so bad-hearted? Keep killing hamsters.Please hang on there, i still have yet to give you a name. Poggie will be sad if you leave him. Its been so long and she still not done with giving birth, maybe the 1st two birth were really premature birth due to stress because i expected the hammies to be due next week or this weekend. Can hamster control the birth timing? Any experts out there to help me out? I really hope my hammie will be safe. So anyone out there who knows how to deal with hammie's birth please hear my pleas and help me.
Shades of black and white
7/31/2006 11:41:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Sunday, July 30, 2006
~Char Shao Bao ah Char Shao Bao~
Oh No, i think i really damn zi high (self-high). Char Shao Bao ah Char Shao Bao is one of the cheers for FOC, that comes together with dance steps. I was like "Char Shao Bao ah Char Shao Bao..." dancing in front of my mother. She looked at me for a while and didnt bother much. Think she gave up on this crazy son of hers.*LOL* I dont know why, the energy is still in me ever since we won best OG. Hella of fun in my OG. Up till now, i just want to go and cheer some more.*LOL* Kanza, satz satz neh. Really Zi high le,*Hahaha* so fun, especially the last day, when we all played the kiampa(deserve beating or some lame games)games and watching those who dont know the answer and keeping them in suspense really is fun. Look at their blur faces, *LOL* Of course there were a few that i couldnt figure out also. We were so engrossed in sloving the games that we forgot about the actual activity that night. Must have OG outing leh, i still want to play those kiampa games. *Haha* hope this kind of energy in me will last forever. It keeps me happy and helps me think positively.
The deadline is nearing but the matter has been settled, but i dont really give a damn about it anymore even if it is not settled, because i am ready to move on be it settled a not. Since its been settled then its good as well. Too happy already.*hahahaha* ~Mosquito ah Mosquito~ (Zi high, sometimes i also buay tahan myself) Hope i am prepared for school though,*LOL* and not end up playing in school.
Chatted with ZH just now, hope he still can cope with the new environment, December will be here very soon. Hang on tight and you will survive. Nothing much to say already, unless you want me to start ~Char Shao Bao ah Char Shao Bao~, Oh ya maybe going to join Salsa en sync of NTU.
This is for Kanza
We are the champions, my friend
and we'll keep on fighting
till the end
We are the champions
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause We are the champions
Of the world
Shades of black and white
7/30/2006 11:54:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
Photo photo photo photo, hahaha Kanza come take photo. LOL. This is the only OG photo that i have.
I think someone is missing.
Hammie pics that i promised.
This is Pouch,(campbell, black bear breed)But R.I.P le, So sorry, i somehow think that i accidentally killed it. So sorry to someone as well,*sigh* fated? I dont know and dont wish to think so much too.
This is Poggie,(winter white, pearl white breed) Now getting fatter and fatter. Dont worry, he isnt alone in the cage, i bought a companion for him. But have not take any pics yet. Got a winter white sapphire breed for him.
Blogging somemore? Dont know, See my mood later. Cya~!
Shades of black and white
7/30/2006 01:23:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Saturday, July 29, 2006
Hey all, I am back from FOC. Physically discharged but mentally recharged. I must say i was once a frog in a well, to me, the world is just as big as the circumference of the well. I did a lot of thinking during the camp about my own life and found out a lot about myself, the once uncomprehensible man. Life is simple, if you live it simple. The complexity of our mind often blured our goals in life. Of course you will have to understand this point or else you will be living life in a cycle.*Haha* Wont be sharing too much on this, because i dont think my friends around me are facing such crisis.
My OG was Kanza. Couldnt really believe ourseleves to win the best OG title and the best freshie came from my OG as well. A OG with the least number of members because many of them left half way. We were out numbered by other OGs, they were 2 times more members than us. One thing is for sure is that we gave it all our best and gave all out to win. Very surprisingly, i didnt like the camp at first, because of the initiation and a lot of running with very little rest. I kept smsing Dino mei mei that i didnt like the camp at all. Little did i expect, i enjoyed the last few days of the camp. The most special part was SP night. Not going to elaborate much here. But my SP is a good and sweet girl ok. This camp was really a breathe taking and lifetime experience for me. I wish to be a freshie again and join the camp next year.*haha*
Came down with flu during the camp, thick yellow-green mucus blocked my nose and all the shouting gave me a sore throat. After resting for the whole of Saturday, felt slightly better. Hmm, well the deadline is nearing, seems like i will have to take it with a pinch of salt and move on, because the environment changes and if i still dont change, i will be able to move on. Life is simple and dont complicate it.
Hey, where's my photo photo, photo photo?
Shades of black and white
7/29/2006 05:54:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Monday, July 24, 2006
To be happy or to be sad?
Yesterday evening was a long long one that lasted till wee hours in the morning. Went to VE earlier. Then after i thought i was late to reach airport by 11pm. Travelled at 110km/hr. My bike couldnt take it. I reached the airport and realised the flight was at 120am. ZH, never tell, caused me to speed on the road.*hahaha* Took a lot of pictures before our main character leaves Singapore. Saw Ah meng as well. We also sat at Starbucks and chatted quite long. We will all miss you here in Singapore. And must really, 'NU LI' like what your uncle told you ah.*Haha* Yups, after ZH left, went to the land of 'Bapoks'. Changi Village~! Went to have supper, no other ill intention please. I could puke. The food there was good, then we left about 2.30am. It such a long travel back home. How i wish i could stay in the airport. I just love planes so damn much. I could see myself soaring away like the birds. Dreaming? No, i will acomplish this dream when i get older. Its FOC today, am i really anticipating it now? I dont know, but i kept telling myself that even if i am sad, i will pass a day, so why not be happy about it? i have to stop focusing on the negative, because it will only get bigger. I have to focus on the positive and let it grow bigger.But then...
Feelings.... I have to keep on telling myself that i had to control feelings or feelings will control me. I really hope its going somewhere, if not i am still stucked in the cage of emotional turmoils. Move on pls, move on.... I want to move on, i really want to. A lot of people dont understand, what i need is not attention, but encouragement. Everytime i take one step forward, i fall two steps back. I try all the time, sometimes i thought i succeeded and yet i fall down again. When will i step out? Now, let it be now, i am really tired of this kind of life. You hurt me so deep and what i have been doing for years is to pour salt into my wound. I am stupid, i let emotions overruled my mind. I couldnt think rationally. I promise myself it wont be for long everytime, but i am still stucked here at square one. You left for higher grounds, but i am still left in the pits. Some one please lead me..I want to move on. MOVE ON... Everyone around me is trying to move on, come on, bring me along with you all. I cried, and now i should gather my courage to push on. I will achieve my goals. If others could do it, why couldnt i? If you are heartless why cant i? If the other you treats me like dirt, why cant i?
Dino mei mei told me that i will look back sometimes and treasure these memories, but why do i feel that its more of a series of nightmares? It my major obstacles in my life. I really hope i didnt need any life bouay to support me, that i could swim to the shores, but the closer i get to the shores, the stronger the wave will be to push me out. Why? I need a light to guide me. I am like a sheep that has lost it's shepherd.
To all those who scorned me, i will be back once i am on the roads again. I promise, i will haunt you all. Dont worry, i wont get bitter, but i will prove to you all that i will only get better. Because i know, i am already in the pits, the only way is up. To those who walked with me, i thank you all, for your accompany when i needed it. I really appreciate you people. And to those who walked away from me, thanks for walking with me half-way, you let me realised those who accompanied me all the way are those that i should really treasure and not Toms, Dicks and Harrys like you guys. You desserted me and i will prove you wrong.
Wont be back till FOC ends, anyway, this song has been going on my head many many times. I will make it, because God answers prayer.
And I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time
In this institution
And I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
So I cry sometimes when I'm lying in my bed
To get it all out what's in my head
Then I start feeling a little peculiar
So I wake in the morning and I step outside
I take a deep breaththen I get real high
Then I scream from the top of my lungs
What's goin' on
What's up by 4 Non blondes
Shades of black and white
7/24/2006 11:46:00 am
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Sunday, July 23, 2006
Its a Sunday~! finally i could take my breathe on a rest day, wont be for long as well, so i got to take this opportunity to rest as much as possible.
Some short updates about yesterday, which i cant remember in details, Dont know why, my memory seems to be failing me more often than before and i am only 21 years old, having a brain of an 70 years old? Thats impossible! i got to use my brain more often before rust sets in. I remember i woke up late because i was dead tired the day before. There after done with some stuff i went to VE to take a look. After that late night was supper with my God-bro. Never met him for about a month, sms me and told be he was held up by sis-in-law because they were quarrelling. I waited for him for about 40 minutes. Finally he arrived in his RVF and the 1st sentence he told me was,'Wa bro, since when you became Bruce Lee?' I didnt catch what he meant initially.So i was like, 'heh?' Then he said,'your hair'. He sure had a sense of humour, but it is indeed true, my hair now is long and if i dont comb, it will be straight and flat down. I gave him the legendary slogan, 'WAAAAAADDDAAAA' and rub my nose with my thumb. Couldnt help it, both of us just laughed on the streets.
We had our supper at Sembawang Teh tarik muslim restaurant. S1 of 'Toufu kidz' came later. It was my first time meeting him, had a friendly hand shake. We chatted about 2.45am and i couldnt take it and felt so sleepy. I made a move 1st and reached home around 3.05am. Dropped dead till lunch time today.
Nearly forgot about the CSS book review. Please, for all those noob out there who wants to learn CSS, dont borrow that book 1st. Its very comprehensive but not illustrative. A lot of text to read without solid examples. You will only understand without knowing how to do. Its more for those in between beginner and mid-level people that has sufficient idea of what CSS is all about.
Just one last add on, My God-bro is selling his RVF for 7.8k, any takers can leave a msg. Purpose of selling because he is going to upgrade to a Honda Civics.
Thats all for now, if i have sometime later, will post some pics of my hammie babies~!
When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand
My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever
Shades of black and white
7/23/2006 01:46:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Saturday, July 22, 2006
Wooah, another dead tired day is over, and its the morning of another day. This morning was one of the most awful morning i ever had. Only drank milo for breakfast, call me stupid, should have eaten more, but its all right, at least my prayer was answered. I showed my sincerity to God, and after a long wait, he answered me. Althought it wasnt the answer which i wanted, but i did see things happening. Thank you God, you really answered my prayer. I did what i intended to do, but wasnt complete though, because i was famished, and it was way after my lunch time. I was feeling so giddy, and it was really a God-send. There was a food stall nearby.*Phew*, quickly ordered food and gulped them down. Anyway, i was sad and disappointed and i dont think i can do much now too, i have to move on like MR. Haw did.
Tutoring came next, the boy as usual didnt really finished my homework. Always giving excuses but its okay, because i always give a lot of homework.*Haha* Sorry boy boy, your mummy said you watched too much tv instead of doing homework, that is why i am giving you so many homework to do.
Evening was meeting up with JC classmates cum ZH mini farewell party, but we had a horrible dinner. The dinner sucks, who suggested going there ah? *Haha* That person sees this post is going to kill me for sure.*Hehe* If i am not wrong, its Dino Jie Jie suggested it. hor? Dino Jie Jie, you have to show me the ropes in studying in NTU ok? Oh, can you be Dino Mei Mei instead? You are younger than me.*Haha* After dinner was chill session at Starbucks. Chat up with ex-classmates and some going to be schoolmates again soon. Chat till the the shop closed and send KS home. Led me the wrong way to you house.*Diao* So tired to travel so far..
By the way when i was in starbucks a call came suddenly. Aaron told me that he got into an accident. I guess the Most 'Suay' rider goes to you liao. In almost a year, changed 3 bikes and when you found the right bike, you get into and accident. What's more, the accident was caused by others and not you. Got banged by another bike from behind. Luckily you did not sustain any injury, but well, got to pay for repairs again when you had wanted to change your tyres. Really, one word: 'SUAY!'
FOC is nearing as well,cant wait for it to start because i am really anticipating it and excited about it. Recieved an Email confirmation and camp details already. But i dont like to be sleeping in a sleeping bag, darn, this camp doesnt come with a proper bed.*Haha* What can i expect when i only paid $45? And i will be getting Hong JunYang campus tickets for joining. Though not a fan of him, but maybe 'bo liao' then go listen to him sing a song and sing along.*LOL*
Oh yesterday nothing much also, just went to Daybed bar to celebrate Rachie's Birthday.Happy Belated Birthday~! Had all sorts of martinis and a 'chim chim' fanciful cake, which i absolutely had no idea what was it called. The food there was great too and thank for the intro.
Last but not least, just want to tell my dear friend ZH that i wish you all the best in your studies in Australia. Dont be too tempted to go to the nude beach please.
Control yourself.*LOL* Yup,the next time round i see you, please bring an Aussie gf back.*Haha* Now heart to heart talk la, thanks for the wonderful time shared together in Singapore, especially watching WC together and the most important was the betting advise.(hor WK?) A few rounds of DotA sometimes, many midnight movies watched together also. All of us here in Singapore will miss you and be waiting for you to come back. Especially your two gay partners, HT and WK. Yup yup, with that, i wish you bon voyage too.
Hungry again, going to grab something to eat before going to sleep. Good night everyone. God Bless You.
Shades of black and white
7/22/2006 01:32:00 am
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Thursday, July 20, 2006
The deadline is drawing closer each day and yet i dont see any glimspe of hope. Is there really a miracle when i believe? My faith in miracles starts to dimished day by day, but i will hold it on till the deadline is up. I dont know whats the idea with the ignoring. No reasons given, nothing at all and what am i suppose to do? i dont know and neither am i given any clues about it. Running away? But there are no reasons to run away. No replies and no answer from calls is all i get. WHY? I dont know.
That aside, I realised that i have been in an 'stagnant' position for years. Its time that i should adapt to changes like Haw(in who moved my cheese?) did. My fear is controling my life instead of me controling my fear. I fear a lot because of bad experiences, i did not dare to venture. I constrainted myself, i lived in my own world and i now understand that i got so used to it, when something happened, i couldnt accept the fact and change along with it. The world can move on without me but i cant move on without the world, yes i have to make a change, i have to change my ideas, my thinkings and my mindset.
I did a few online test, IQ EQ and left-handed tests. And my results,
The Classic IQ Test
What's Your IQ?
Congratulations, Cheewei!
Your IQ score is 120
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.
Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.
Results of the Emotional IQ Test
Your score = 85
What does your score mean?
There's some bad news and some good news. The bad news is that your Emotional IQ is relatively low. In a practical sense, this means that you are not reaching your full potential. Low EIQ has a negative impact on all aspects of life such as relationships, your emotional health and level of motivation. As a result of your behavior, others may view you as being critical, inexpressive, inhibited, detached, cold, or even condescending. Your difficulties relating to others and dealing successfully with your own emotions may have a negative impact on your health; people with lower EIQs are prone to anxiety, depression, excessive guilt, aggressiveness, low self-concept, and stress-related problems. Chances are that you also have difficulty bouncing back from life's problems. Now for the good news: by learning and practicing new skills and more effective ways of dealing with people, you can significantly improve your EIQ. The benefits will be numerous, including stronger relationships, a more successful career and better health. Most of all, you will be an all-around happier person.
I got IQ but i got no EQ, i have yet to develop to my full potential. I am a left-hander but i dont see myself performing well as one. They said left-handers are more intellectual beings, is it really so? Left-handers are good at Arts and Music, but its my weakest subjects in secondary school. I really have to do some self-actualisation. Please, some one help me. Whats wrong with me? I want to become successful.
Shades of black and white
7/20/2006 01:01:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Tuesday, July 18, 2006
The reasons on why i dont trust people
I guess tonight's blog will be a very very long one, because i got alot to say after someone mentioned somethings to me. As the title says it all, some friends of mine did ask me why i just dont believe them even though we are friends.
Before i touch on that, just want to briefly go through what i did today. Meet Mr.Wanky for lunch at SIM and did some photocopying of the CSS book. (The book review will do later if time permits, if not, will do tomorrow.) Wanky was late again, i told him in advanced that whoever is late will treat. But this time only drinks, as Wanky is broke. Chat with him a while and i met up with 'Old Man', one of my companymate from 30th SCE. Had a short chat as well, before i gatecrashed the lecture.*Haha* Quite fun, but i only stayed for five minutes in the lecture room and did a survey form for one of Wanky's classmate. After that, i went to the library to return the books, and borrowed new ones. 3 new books to read, on top of that i still have 'Who moved my cheeze?' to read. One on Javascript, one on Dreamweaver 8 and last one is 'codes of the millionaire'.
Evening was the same company's presentation, just go in to take a look for further understanding. So there is nothing much to say too. Was waiting for a reply the whole day, nothing came as well. Just wait and wait, cause she said, miracles will happen when you believe. I believe one day it will be a sun-shiny day after the storm.Right?
Now back to the topic on the reasons why i dont trust people. I know many people always felt that i dont trust them because they always ask me is it that i dont believe them. This has always been something very personal and i didnt share it with many friends. I have decided to face the problem and that is why i am going to post everything over here.This goes all the way back when i was in primary school. I didnt have many friends because i dare not speak up, i only knew a few classmates and get by with it everyday. Socialising was a huge obstacle for me. Then it came a time when one of my classmates wanted to order more food during reccess. He had finished his daily allowance and wanted to borrow money from me. I didnt even think much and just lend him the money, Neither did i ask back the money from him, even though a dollar is like a lot to a primary school kid during my time. Slowly i realised the power of money, i thought i could buy friends with my money, because i felt that that particular classmate started to talk to me more often. So one fine day, i asked a few of my classmates to gather around the table during reccess. I took out my pouch filled with coins and poured it out on the table. I took them, take it, my treat to you all. i kept doing that for a few days,(cant remember how many days, too long ago) and my friends around me were all very happy. I thought i would have made more friends this way and they talked to me more often then usually as well. I built my friendship with them, i trust that they were my friends, little did i expect this friendship that was built up of money didnt last at all. I told them i didnt have enough for myself to eat one day, and the usual friends who gathered in front of the table made their way off, dissappearing into thin air within seconds. I didnt know what to say, but i learnt my lessons hard and well. It was a wrong concept to 'buy' friends. I feared so much that i couldnt forget this incident till now. I cant get over with it, i dont know why, the incident could just replay in my mind anytime, and i could remember it. Then came the second incident, when i was around 13-14 years old. Luckily it was not a major one. Neopets was quite a craze then. I had won a jackpot and had a lot of Neo money. I dont know what got over me that i actually believe a con that i would get more neo money in exchange for my id and password. Yes, i must admit i am a guilable and easy to cheat guy. From that time onwards, i didnt play Neopets anymore. ( i know this sounds stupid, but it did leave an impression on me) There was one last major incident, which i am not going to mention here, because it will offend some people. If you are my close friend, you would know. Anyway i grew more and more suspicious of people and start to guard against them. So if anyone comes up to me and say 'hi', i will act, but deep inside me, i am already telling myself that this person is up to no good.
Based on my bad experiences, i dare not put my compelete trust anymore. If i had offended any of my friends, please, i hope you all could understand me. I hope you all would give me a longer time to place my trust on you, i would truely appreciate that. Thanks for reading. Good night.
Shades of black and white
7/18/2006 11:20:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
Tuition again and this time i got a proper explanation from the parents. The agency one of which i pressume unregistered and a home base business. As my pay is what that has agreed upon initially, i dont see the need to pursue any further.
There after came more talks and disscussion at a company till i got so hungry because i didnt had my dinner. Just finish dinner only. Very interesting plans ahead, but i still have to think properly.
Anyway, i thought over it, no point arguing so much, on my part i want to say that i am sorry. Being angry is also meaningless, if you are angry, please dont be.
Going to read 'who moved my cheeze?' and meeting Wanky tomorrow.Good Night.
Shades of black and white
7/18/2006 12:27:00 am
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Sunday, July 16, 2006
Woo..End of a week and the begining of a new one. So many wonderful things happened for this week and some bad ones as well. Feeling troubled but still manage to enjoy the whole week.
Saturday evening was another learning session for me. I have to dare to dream, dare to think and dare to want.*haha* Only certain people will understand me.There after went to Ktv with the usual gang. This might be one of the most missed Ktv session ever, as it was Cat's mini farewell party. All was present, except an invited person didnt turn up, and all of us was late*LOL* 'late as got to late together ma'. Quite crazy, because i think it was a long long time since i went to Ktv. The ever cry-baby Cat nearly cried when we were singing. Luckily i stopped her in time. Then we went to have supper at outram. Talked a lot and Andy told me alot about NTU system. Seems like i really wont have time to play at all when school starts. Glad that i made a correct choice of FOC as well. Went home after supper.
Sunday as usual, nothing much to highlight. Was expecting an sms, which never came.Just want to tell you, i so happen to read your blog, if i had not, then would the post be there till i read it? Meanwhile you will let everyone read it? Isnt it that u want to tell people indirectly since you publish it on a blog. Also if people's opinion matters to you so much, then i really truely dont understand why. No wonder you will always think that alot of people dont like you. You dare to dream, but you dont chase your dreams. I dont wish to say anymore as well, since you dont even show the interest in this friendship. Or perhaps i am in your banlist already. I also want to tell you that i only saw your blog's latest post now. So are you telling me now if i need an explanation, i can find one from your blog? Anyway I will send your regards to her. Thanks for your concern. All the best for your test on the 24th.
Here is an funny video i found today. Just want to share.
Shades of black and white
7/16/2006 12:33:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Friday, July 14, 2006
Came home just around 11.30pm when the day is about to end. Time passes rather fast i must say.Another 2 weeks plus will be FOC and 3 weeks plus, school will start. Feeling totally not prepared at all.Cant helped it, because i havent been using my brain for 3years.*LOL* Wont be saying much tonight because i am simply tired.
This evening was an enriching one, i was at a presentation and heard some interesting stories which i would like to share too.
There was once a man who fell down from the cliff in the night. He fumbled through the vegetation growing on the cliff and finally grabbed on to a branch. He desperately held onto the branch as he knew if he let go, he will fall deeper and may even die. He shouted many times for help,'Is there anyone up there?' Finally, a deep voice returned his call,' Yes, I am God, believe me and i will help you.' Under such circumstances, the man agreed immediately that he believes in him. So God said to him,'Let go of the branch and you will survive.'Guess what? He didnt let go of the branch but held onto it. The next morning, police found his body frozen stiff, clinging onto the branch. He was only a feet away from the ground.
Yup, the next one goes like that. In a poor province area of China, there was a village that suffered from drought for months. The villagers had almost finish their grains and needed to grow new crops as soon as possible. A little girl saw that her family was already starving and decided to ask the Chief to pray for rain. The Chief thought that it was a good idea and called for all the villagers to go up to the temple built high above the hill behind their village. The started to pray for hours and the first crack of thunder was heard after 5 hours. The rain began to fall heavily and the villages rejoyced for their prayer was heard. Soon after that, they wanted to make their way down back to the village but couldnt as it was raining heavily. It was only when the little girl took out an umbrella and walked back to the village to return home, the rest of the villagers felt so ashamed of themselves. Other than the little girl, none of the villagers actually believed that it will rain.
So whats the moral of the story? i will leave it to you to do your own thinking. Thats all for now, seems like this week has been rather wonderful.
Shades of black and white
7/14/2006 11:55:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Thursday, July 13, 2006
Woah, So heng, i wasnt even expecting anything.Just to add on to what happened earlier on. I was at a company presentation this evening, was given a sicker with a number on it. Mine was 18, and they were playing some lucky draw. I was non-chalant about it. Even to the point when it was the last prize and i was like, 'lucky draw? whatever.' The next moment my number was called! i looked at it again and immediately stood up.*LOL* I had never won a prize in this kind of situation before, is it some kind of God-send signal? Thought not a big prize, but its worth 300 dollars.Guess whats it? Its a small bottle of facial product by a reputable company. *LOL* Can become a metrosexual like HT liao.*HEHEHE* So gay, but my point is, today is quite lucky?
Shades of black and white
7/13/2006 10:33:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
Time and tide waits for no man
Came home right after the 5th lesson and i recieved a phone call from KS.Gee, is the agency really a fraud? i am begining to worry about it too. What if i got cheated as well? Better start to clarify things before i get cheated as well. going out very soon again, meeting my friend.Just an update on yesterday.
Went to SIM(Singapore Institute of Management) yesterday, because i am suppose to meet Hongyao, aka Mr. Wanky for lunch. Since my Wednesday afternoon is free, so i agreed to meet him at SIM for lunch. Reach there 20 mins earlier than arranged, and i met so many old friends there in SIM. The first was Liang Wei, we were both shocked to see each, as though we came from 2 different planet. Chat up with him for a few minutes before he went off.I Walked further in to the campus and i saw Vivien. *haha*. She is still the same as before, gave me a big pat on my arm and showed me the speechless face.Chat up for a while as well and told her i am just meeting a friend here.
There after, I went into the library(with the 'memebers only' sign),heck...)to photocopy some stuff.Wanky told me that i had use the cashcard to pay for the photocopying fee, so i went ahead to photocopy room.Oh my, it was crowded and i dont even know how to use the machines.I felt so embarrassed to be using the machines, so i left the library and made a call to XingLing.(Haha, still paiseh when i think about it)She briefly explained to me how to function the machines and i went back in to try. Seeing the crowd there, i still didnt dare to photocopy because i would look like a mountain tortise if i made any mistake there.I thought it would be better to wait till Wanky arrives, but he told me he will be very late and just told me to go ahead and photocopy first. Plucked up my courage, i went ahead. There, alas, I embarrassed myself in front of a few guys.Some previous user left the card inside the machine and i couldnt slot mine in.I went to ask some students there for help.Just as the student figured that out, the uncle came over to help me instead.*Phew*, very nice of him, he taught me step by step as thought i am a freshman of SIM.(sorry hor, i going NTU).So much for printing, i went out and waited for Wanky.Oh gosh, i saw Peishan at the bus-stop, didnt chat and did the disappearing act.(*LOL*, anyway she was in a hurry).
I met up with Wanky finally. As a form of apology, i made him treat me for lunch and kind enough, he just agreed instantly.Actually i wasnt even expecting a treat. I owe you a treat, Wanky.Had a hearty chat over lunch, there after we made our way out of the food court and i saw Valerie.What a small world SIM is and Wanky called it the unoffical 4th University in Singapore.I walked passed her and called her name, she was like,'Hi,.. er what's your name?' I replied her and waved to her before leaving abruptly as Mr. Wanky needs to poo poo.(*LOL*)Oh, photocopying is cheap in SIM, 3cts per piece, think i am going to do all my zapping in SIM till my school starts.
There after came my brother's graduation ceremony at UCC (university cultural centre) at NUS.Haha, finally got his degree, so he can jolly well go find a job and stop fighting with me over my computer.*LOL* 4 years seems to pass by like a breeze, Also, it was VE monthly seminar, someone got a BMW to drive already, Congrats on your hard earned car.Oh my, got to wake up my idea as well.
Shades of black and white
7/13/2006 05:50:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Tuesday, July 11, 2006
for you-know-who-you-are. think about it.
not the first time anymore.
or should i say? countless times.
i've lost counts of you being like this.
a 21 year old being talking to me in such a childish manner.
liang liang didi says you just wanna seek attention from me.
even if there's nothing to talk about, you'll just find something from somewhere to talk about, so that i'll continue replying you.
is that really so?
i don't like it. i really don't like it this way.
we've been friends for so long. you know me quite well i can say, but not totally.
but why are you behaving like that again and again?
even my closest friend i've never quarrelled with so many times, but you're always finding fault with me to argue things with me.
what's your problem?!?!?
why befriending you will cause me an increase of hp bills and being pek cek with you for your out-of-nothing-arguements?
do you know my bill increased from the previous month of 34 to last month 120?
and... i can confidently say that more than 60% of the sms are sent to you.
we're friends. i won't run. is it really necessary to sms the whole day?
why can't you understand me?
you know what? sometimes i just feel like giving up... giving up on this friendship... because i'm tired of argueing unneccessarily, or even explaining things to you when you think that i've done something wrong, and worst, you keep finding fault with me out of nothing.
i'm sick of it, aren't you?
think about it bah. you're 21, you're an adult le.
you know who you are.
but just to tell you, i don't dislike you at all. in fact, i really treat you as a good friend. i just hope you don't define it the wrong way.
left;
* ~ m i S s i n G y o U ~
Quarrelled again, yes as usual, i am always the one at fault to you.Mind you, it takes two hands to clap.I cant possibly quarrel alone.You always asked me to think about it. What about you? Have you played your part to find out the reasons and the problems? You deemed me as a childish 21 yrs old adult.Whatever, it takes one to know too. You aint any more mature than i am in handling relationships.How many had you failed?And if you had know me so well, would you even need to seek someone to question my manners towards you? How much does this guy know about me? Of course he would side with you since i dont even know him.And even he said that i am seeking attention, then why am i seeking attention?
I tried to talk to you more often, since you regard me as your buddy. I maybe wrong to correct you with your unreasonable behaviour. If thats why you are feeling resentment against me, then i am sorry.I should have leave you in the lurch.And more resentment because i waste you handphone bills.Since you mind money that much, tell me and i will pay for your phone bills this month.If that is the case, dont break up with your boyfriends so often, i wont want to waste my phone bills on you too, to comfort you when you need someone to talk to.I wont want to waste petrol to travel down to see you, to give you assurance that you are not useless.I am not born with a sliver spoon in my mouth.If you want to mention about money, I believed that i spent even more on you. I also do not want to coax you like a kid as well. I dont want to repeat the history that i become the cause of you breakup as well, not only i had to comfort you, i became one of the reason why you had to breakup. You claim that i am your buddy, but i feel more like you are giving me a difficult position everytime. You expect too much of me when you are sad, but you dont wish me to have an influence in your life when you are happy. Thats why i felt that you are only nice to me when you are sad. I dont know what gave you that idea that i am your buddy when i dont even think you are one to me. Because you simply dont even understand me, neither do you wish to make an effort to know me. So much for a buddy.I have already given myself a deadline, to try my best to patch things up and improve our relationship, but i dont see that you are interested either. The more i try, i more you find me irritating. So much for my effort, which to you i only know you quite well, and how much do you know me? A friendship that is not reciprocal and you could call me your buddy? You seek my attention and i cant seek yours. Maybe its unneccessary to try or i am just too foolish to do that.Also, i am not finding faults in you, i only need proper explaination, but i guess maybe it not neccessary anymore from now on.
You are who you are, i wont be able to change you no matter how i say about you.But rest assure, i wont even want to bother about what you do anymore. You wont have to explain anything anymore. Since you want to blog it and made it known to public and make a fool out of both of us, i will play along. This is how i will take it since you want to publish it on your blog.
Lastly, I must admit, i too am human, and will err sometimes.I am really sorry that i had lied to you a couple of times, i did explain to you, but to you once it over, you wont want to mention it anymore.All i can say, you never learn from history.In what way if i ever had offended you then i am really truely sorry.I have my temper so do you.I hope you understand. I dont wish to be the one always doing the understanding. Its meaningless.I thank you for treating me as a good friend i appreciate that.But no thanks for treating me as a buddy, because never in one way or another did i ever felt it.You had more than a fair share of my time. Friends or not, once my deadline is up, and if it is still so hopeless, its game over.
Shades of black and white
7/11/2006 03:14:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Monday, July 10, 2006
Blogging Down My Thoughts
WC finally over.Yup, made some instant cash with it. Yeah, won a total of $13.15, not a lot compared to those hardcore gamblers, but at least can tide me over for 1-2 days.All thanks to WK lah, *haha*.And ZH won a lot sia.Top profiter.(if there is such a word, i think so?)
Was tutoring just now.It was the 4th lesson already.So far so good, but its rather boring as well.Now i understand how KS felt.*haha* No choice, for the sake of money.As i was teaching science half-way, there was a particular question he did not know how to do and it etched in my heart so deeply.No, the question wasnt some tough nut.Just a very simple GK(general knowledge) question.'What do plants need to grow?'Simple as it is, air,water,soil and sunlight.But its not just that that left a deep impression in me.Its because i realised a similarity in feelings.
Some said that feelings can be nurtured over time, how i agree with it.There are also others who believe in love at first sight which i also believe, just that its more rare and seldom happen to people.Yes, as you already know, feelings are just like a seed planted in the heart.I can be the Sun to shower you with warmth, but if you dont even wish to water it,it will never germinate.Maybe your flower pot are filled with too many seeds that are growing strong and blooming.There is no room for this particular one.There is simply no space in your heart, no wonder the harder i try, the deeper i fall.I feel very helpless to watch the seed to die.Nvm, you wont be reading this either.Whole load of crap by me, the crapster.Not many people read my blog either, i dont care, i just want to record it down for memories sake.Maybe you can only become part of my memories that i will lock in a secluded part of my heart.
Thoughts are so poisonous, it poisoned my soul to carry on living, it poisoned my mind to be flooded with you,but i simply couldnt help it and continue to let the poison gush to my heart.I dont know, perhaps i am starting to play the waiting game like i did years back..
我守候在你家的门外 整个晚上都不离开 我想你靠在我的胸怀
我要将感觉留到every night 走在吵闹拥挤的人海 我想要好好感觉你的存在
望着遥远灰色的星海 一个人孤独的发呆
我依然还在等待 等待你会明白 一颗坚强的心在等你回来 风在吹让他擦去我脸上的泪
不要以为我真的无所谓 不怕累只要我的身边有你陪 请你相信我是真的不后悔
Sigh,couldnt find any motivation to do anything,end up playing games over and over again for the rest of the day.Today is ending soon, just a few more minutes away, i could only hope tommorow would be a better day.Thats all. TMR WILL BE BETTER~!
Shades of black and white
7/10/2006 11:55:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Sunday, July 09, 2006
Taking a break now, feeling bored and so i decided to write someting here.Its raining very heavily,thunder and lighting working hand in hand. Showering cats and dogs on Singapore.*Crap*I guess the whole of Singapore must be raining as well. I am so lazy, cant helped it. Its a nice and cosy weather now, in my own 'slumberroom'.Oh my, how often can i just laze around like this once school starts?
Yesterday went to see NDP rehearsal at National Stadium with yy.Before that,wanted to give her something, but the shop was closed.Next time ba.Hmm, quite happy to watch the rehearsal with her,but the performances are just so-so. You will get what i mean if you always watch NDP.All the SOP drills as usual,some fanciful Red Lions parachuting, neat and oraganised marching contingent, some school children running here and there on the field, fireworks display at the end...etc. I had seen previous NDP rehearsals many times already.Think its about 7 times excluding one live.Of which 4 were last years rehearsals. But i wasnt the audience for last years NDP, because i was ON DUTY at Padang.*LOL* Anyway the purpose is not just to have fun but remind us Singaporeans of who we are, our Singaporean identity, the effort we had put in which brought us so far. Its more like a yearly reminder.As for me, I was just waiting for fireworks.
There after we had dinner and play pool,nothing much to mention here, just that my pool sucks,*haha* so? I got my own niche areas, which i guess i do have right? I cant be that lousy. We shall see.There after went home to watch WC.Germany won. Oh my, someone became $30 poorer after the match.WC will be ending soon, one last match, and i cant help it but envy someone who got $250 richer out of WC2006, hor ZH?
Before i go back with my stuff, just want to update on the CSS book written by the folks of W3C.
http://w3c.org Simply too great, its so difficult to understand with little illustration.I gave up reading it many a times.Maybe i will just look for other CSS books next week.And for the blog template, think will take years to come.*haha*, i only had a personal background img that i want to use. Whats more, i still have to read the Blog tags used by Blogger. Can anybody help me here and tell me which blog tags should go to where?
Shades of black and white
7/09/2006 06:16:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Here are 2 Funny Videos (both in Cantonese, but there's sub title)
Shades of black and white
7/05/2006 01:34:00 am
The most colourful one would be you
Its been 2 days, and some things are just over and done with.Just fated.No point mention them here. Death of a hamster does bring about the end of other stuff as well. I should have look ahead for a new start. Especially for the FOC(freshmen orientation camp) of NTU, looking forward to it and make new friends.
Sometimes i dont even understand myself well, i dont know where my heart is leading me.Why do people always talk about following your heart when the heart is not leading to a good ending? Sometimes your brain tells you one thing yet your heart tells you another.Which one would you choose? I really wished that feelings are objects which can be thrown away.The first thing i would do would be taking 'feelings' out of my heart, put it in a bag or something, tie it up and throw it down the rubbish chute.Yup, hope the garbage company would not recycle it and incinerate it.But i am very selfish in this case, i forgot about my loved ones who need my feelings.Maybe i can be selective about throwing which type of feelings?I dont know. Been feeling very vexed, i just hope everything would be fine when school officially starts. I have a lot of studies to catch up.
Well, feelings aside. Here is my update on the HTML book that i borrowed from the library. Generally i would rate it 4 upon 5. It is somewhat reader friendly, just some trouble looking through a bulky book. Overall, the HTML language was presented in a very systematic manner, like what you should learn first. Like a step by step book. The only flaw was that the book i borrowed is not the latest print, Which means that the website given to assist the reader is not synchronised with the book. As for the other book, i still have yet to read. Thats for another time.
Now its just me in the living room, waiting for the WC match to start. Semi-finals already, WC going to end soon, and the next WC would be in 2010. Every WC seems to be nicely arranged for me. The 1st time i watched WC was in 1998 when i was in Sec 1. One year after my PSLE. So i could afford to spend more time on the TV since i already made it to Sec1. Then the previous WC was in 2002, when i was in JC1, just nice my Os paper was over. Now its 2006, just before i enter Uni.And the next one would be just after i graduate from Uni. Did the gahberment followed WC to plan the education system?
As for the blog templates, i am still working on it.So there wont be any major changes for now. Thats all for today. Thanks for reading.
Shades of black and white
7/05/2006 12:41:00 am
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Sunday, July 02, 2006
Watched WC at Zhi hao's house was fun. There were only four of us, Weekwok, Hanting, Zhihao and myself. Zhihao's family was not around, so Hanting had the opportunity to shout like mad.Hahaha, hoped ZH wont receive any police letter today.
Eng vs Port match was a disappointing one for the 3 of them.(I dont really support England. 'hehe')Especially when Rooney got a red card by the referee, it was like a major turning point for England and for the 3 of them as well. I was also quite shocked because i was anticipating a yellow card instead.Poor Rooney, was the only skillful striker available at that stage but was sent off. Then came the penalty shootout, WK the addicted gambler wanted to bet some more to recover his loses after the bet he made for England to win.Felt like getting some fast cash, i asked WK to place 2 bucks for Portugal to win.Yup yup, and i won 2 bucks in return, while WK had reduced his loses as well.But for the 3 major England supporter, I could see them in totally disappointment with England. The whole living room went silent for a few seconds.Could you imaging that?Some hardcore die-hard England fans they were. As for me, i am just happy to pocket the 2 bucks. So much for 2 bucks, We ordered Mac delivery before the Bra vs Fra match, at least if was 2 dollars cheaper for me. I predicted that it will be level for 1st half and France will make the 1st goal at the 2nd half, but Brazil will score slightly before full time.Well, was partially correct only. Luckily i didnt bet this time. Went home straight after the match and was dead tired. Just fell asleep after lying for a few minutes.
Woke up at about 1pm and was touching up my master piece for my brother.Thereafter, i remembered that i need to buy assessment books for my student. Made a short trip to Lot 1- popular book stall. Have you notice that the educational standards in Spore has been raising? I was browsing for the correct assessment books and was comparing those of which i used to do in the past.The standards now is slightly higher i must say.Most of them have been edited and republished almost on a yearly basis.Made the purchased and it cost 31.90. Going to make the claims tommorow.As i was bored just now, i walked over to the library to have a look. Intially i wanted to borrow some books on Engineering Mathematics, because school is going to start in a months time i am better off with arming myself with some knowledge at least.i did a quick search on the computer and went to the rack to find my books. But they were not very concised and so i gave up. Went to search for HTML and CSS books instead. Yup, satisfied with what i have found, i borrowed both books tittled; SAMS Teach yourself HTML and XHTML in 24 hours, Cascading Style Sheets designing for the web. I cant comment much on the books for now because i only did a short browsing through the books at the library.So, i will leave that for a later time.
Oh ya, While i was reading the HTML book, there's a webbie that belongs to the author, which contains online materials to assist the readers. Think that its not a bad idea to recommend it on my blog.Here is the link, 24hourhtmlcafe. Hmm, that for now and back to some serious reading.Oh, and i am still waiting for someone to msg me. Msg me soon. Bye!
Some things to add on, when browsing the 24hourhtmlcafe webbie, right click and select view source.Just extra info for those who are with little or no knowledge of HTML.
Shades of black and white
7/02/2006 11:28:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Saturday, July 01, 2006
Bored.Instead of doing what i am suppose to do, went to design my blog. And that explains why i am here.Haha, still quite a greenhorn with CSS, and i got so confused.Decided to leave the design to another day. Went to youtube to watch clips.
I just did a search on Infernal Affairs,cause i felt like listening to the theme song again.Here it is and its in Cantonese. Think the cantonese version is much nicer than the chinese version.Yup, Oh, for those of you who are real bored, u can search for 'infernal affairs, cdpro2' Its a series of short clips from the trilogy.Just that it all had been dubbed in Hokkien.Thought i dont really understand whats Cdpro2 all about, but still quite funny clips.There is also the dubbed MV of infernal affairs, with singers mentioning cdpro2 as well.Quite lame as well.
Guess tonight i will be going down to ZH's house to watch WC.Will be staying up late today.Meanwhile, its back to youtube.
Shades of black and white
7/01/2006 05:59:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you