What did i do today? Friday, June 30, 2006
Kinda messy, still at experimental stage, meanwhile .. going to catch World Cup..
Shades of black and white
6/30/2006 10:25:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
Made a trip to Plaza Sing this afternoon.Went to meet my BMT buddy after an invitation from him to meet up. 'After so long, you asked me out?' i thought. I am begining to be more suspicious about him.We had a chat at Starbucks and low and behold, he is actually trying to ask me to join him in some business.Knew it, it just cant be a heart to heart talk about the old times in BMT.As for what business, i wont mention it here. We chat for about 2hours and i told him i will consider about it.And i left for home after that, doing some stuff for my brother.Been busy lately helping out my brother with his business as well.Strange, i am no business student and yet the world around me is always talking about business.
Now to backtrack some stuff.(wonder if it will be a long blog)Lately i am having some friendship problem and made me ponder a lot.(Wont be thinking this much, if she didnt mention that our friendship is weak)Its rather complicating and pardon me if i am uncomprehensible, because our relationship is just incomprehensible.Let call her A.A claims that i am her buddy, and to her, a buddy is like a close brother.Recently we quarrelled and she accused that i dont trust her.While i accused her showing neglectance towards me.
According to www.dictionary.com, there 3 definitions given which i want to highlight.Trust is
1.Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.
2.Something committed into the care of another; charge.
3.Custody; care.
How can i have firm reliance on someone whom never explains what she does?Its ok if she dont explain once in a while.But everyone does self-explaination if the other parties involved should have the rights to know.Neither does she be apologetic about it if she doesnt explain.
How can i commit anything into the care of her, when the previous few times its not been done? Which goes back to the 1st pt, because she didnt explained why its not done.
How can i care for her when i feel that she neglects me so often?
In short, how to trust her? Once a while yes, once a while no.I really dont know what to do.Sigh. Of course, i must admit that i do have done wrong towards her too.I feel really sorry, i didnt mean to lie to her.But i only wanted to protect myself.I will explain to her if i have the chance.Thats why i told her that i dont deserve to be her buddy.How can this platonic relationship last if i am a person whom expect proper explaination, while she is a person whom expect only trust? This has been going on since we knew each other.What can i do to reslove this?
Shades of black and white
6/30/2006 11:03:00 am
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Thursday, June 29, 2006
My first blog post and i really dont know what i should type. According to www.dictionary.com , the definition of blog is an online diary; a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a Web page; also called Weblog, Web log.
So, i am suppose to write whatever that happened today and my thoughts on it? Hmm.. Dont really know where i should start.
Just came back from giving tuition. It was my first time as well. I guess i did pretty well, cause the mum seems quite please.Initially i was quite uneasy about taking up tuition as a job.Because, my friends would know that i am more an introvert. How could an introvert teach? mind you, i do suspect that i have autism when i was young.Introvert plus autism, and *poof*, you get me.. LOL. Or perhaps its only pri3 that i am tutoring, so i guess that was easy. Next lesson will be on Monday, and i got to get assessment books for the kid. He look rather playful and not interesting in studying, typical kids? Oh well.. we'll see how it goes.
Meanwhile, fiddling with everything on blog, especially the help section.As well as msging someone whom, really getting on my nerves, but more of dissappointment than anger. Thats all for now, i will fill you in when i have the time.
Now, its back to help section.
Shades of black and white
6/29/2006 05:47:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you