What did i do today? Monday, July 10, 2006
Blogging Down My Thoughts
WC finally over.Yup, made some instant cash with it. Yeah, won a total of $13.15, not a lot compared to those hardcore gamblers, but at least can tide me over for 1-2 days.All thanks to WK lah, *haha*.And ZH won a lot sia.Top profiter.(if there is such a word, i think so?)
Was tutoring just now.It was the 4th lesson already.So far so good, but its rather boring as well.Now i understand how KS felt.*haha* No choice, for the sake of money.As i was teaching science half-way, there was a particular question he did not know how to do and it etched in my heart so deeply.No, the question wasnt some tough nut.Just a very simple GK(general knowledge) question.'What do plants need to grow?'Simple as it is, air,water,soil and sunlight.But its not just that that left a deep impression in me.Its because i realised a similarity in feelings.
Some said that feelings can be nurtured over time, how i agree with it.There are also others who believe in love at first sight which i also believe, just that its more rare and seldom happen to people.Yes, as you already know, feelings are just like a seed planted in the heart.I can be the Sun to shower you with warmth, but if you dont even wish to water it,it will never germinate.Maybe your flower pot are filled with too many seeds that are growing strong and blooming.There is no room for this particular one.There is simply no space in your heart, no wonder the harder i try, the deeper i fall.I feel very helpless to watch the seed to die.Nvm, you wont be reading this either.Whole load of crap by me, the crapster.Not many people read my blog either, i dont care, i just want to record it down for memories sake.Maybe you can only become part of my memories that i will lock in a secluded part of my heart.
Thoughts are so poisonous, it poisoned my soul to carry on living, it poisoned my mind to be flooded with you,but i simply couldnt help it and continue to let the poison gush to my heart.I dont know, perhaps i am starting to play the waiting game like i did years back..
我守候在你家的门外 整个晚上都不离开 我想你靠在我的胸怀
我要将感觉留到every night 走在吵闹拥挤的人海 我想要好好感觉你的存在
望着遥远灰色的星海 一个人孤独的发呆
我依然还在等待 等待你会明白 一颗坚强的心在等你回来 风在吹让他擦去我脸上的泪
不要以为我真的无所谓 不怕累只要我的身边有你陪 请你相信我是真的不后悔
Sigh,couldnt find any motivation to do anything,end up playing games over and over again for the rest of the day.Today is ending soon, just a few more minutes away, i could only hope tommorow would be a better day.Thats all. TMR WILL BE BETTER~!
Shades of black and white
7/10/2006 11:55:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you