What did i do today? Sunday, January 27, 2008
lost my heart.
lost my mind.
What am i.
Shades of black and white
1/27/2008 11:50:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you
What did i do today? Thursday, January 10, 2008
Hi to whoever who read this..
19 days since we met- at Bugis Village where we parted as you went to meet your brother, i made a U-turn and last saw you at the bus-stop. You msged me to Ride safe before i left.
10 days since you last msged me. Your last msg asking me to think before doing anything because your family is affected.
After that, hell.
I am in a mess, i really hate myself now, shouldnt have drank, i HATE MYSELF! PIECE OF SHIT.
Bloody drunkard wastrel..
i miss you so much now. Everyday, i couldnt eat nor sleep..
A meal a day, i just play games 24/7 but it didnt help.. Forget to drink, forget to eat, forget to bathe.. just forget everything, and when its time to sleep.. i just got so tired and sleep... i thought it helps...but consectutively, i dreamt of you everynight... i really miss you .. i thought i saw you .. and i thought i heard you talking to me .. then i woke up and look around.. i definitely heard you... but .. you are not there.. i must be dreaming..
School has started, didnt want to leave from my dream.. didnt want to go school.. skipped so many lectures already..
Now that i am broke as well, bills, medical fees, whatever ..I wish i was this guy,
But no.. i am this guy,
Whatever.. i just miss you so much, there is so much to tell you.. and i really love you. going crazy soon.. i dunno how long i can hold on.. i am getting hysterical, i dont know what i am seeing is what i am seeing.. or what am i even doing..
all i know is, i am true to you.
Shades of black and white
1/10/2008 07:56:00 pm
The most colourful one would be you