What did i do today? Tuesday, May 06, 2008
I HATE MYSLEF!! I HATE IT !! I AM AN IDIOT!!
So pissed.. I just am so F**king Pissed, KNNBCCB WATEVER LAH... NBCB.. MF ... FAGGOT DH....
I really am so lost... So pissed... dont understand why cant even this damn blogger give me some face and work for damn goodness sake.. WTF? Pissed with the XML .. screw up my time format with that UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED, UNDEFINED... You blogger editor out there provide shit solutions.. WHY MUST I FOLLOW THAT FORMAT.. WHY CANT I JUST PUT TIME FORMAT DIFFERENTLY INSTEAD?????? You are just hidding the damn problem away, and not even solving anything..
I cant control myslef.. i really keep too many things to myslef.. but yet.. those i told to were probably disappointed in me and didnt want to talk to me anymore.. everyday .. it just pile up more and more.. i just dont know how long can i how on anymore. Everytime i think of you, i will just break down .. everywhere i go, your shadow is always around ... Why?. I really dont know what to do.. but just kept you in my prayer everytime...
FED UP with myself... Just so sometimes i wish i am dead.. Nights filled with nightmare, Days filled with yearning...JUST WHAT THE FUCK DID I GO SO WRONG? WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH ME.. FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.. I REALLY HATE MYSELF .... I am just waiting to die ... for so many times, i just close my eyes on the road on the bike asking why all these must happen... i cannot stand it .. and if i must .. just let me die on the road now.I REALLY CANNOT STAND MYSELF...WHY CANT I JUST LIVE FOR MYSELF??? I CAN JUST DIE WITHOUT CAUSING ANYONE ANY PROBLEM>.. AHHAHAHHHAH..
DAMN YOU BLOGGER.
Shades of black and white
5/06/2008 12:12:00 am
The most colourful one would be you